It appears my pledge of slowing down the posts was pure B.S. Honestly, it appears I just can't help myself.
Well, oh well, I am putting this up to help lighten the place up after the previous post. :)
Specifically, let's discuss the expression of femininity versus masculinity.
I've been watching a bit of RuPaul's new show, "Drag Race". Such fun having cable!
First, let me say how much RuPaul meant to me as a teenager. When I was a young, artsy and isolated teen, stuck in a one horse town, I heard about RuPaul. I saw his video, read articles. And I cannot tell you what it meant to me, hearing all of it. I didn't quite understand what was happening, but RuPaul helped me figure a lot out. And, as role models go, RuPaul was one of the best. And if she is reading this right now, and really, why wouldn't RuPaul be reading Mrs. Hall? THANK YOU!!
About two years ago, I purposefully sought to become a real woman. I started wearing make up and dressing nicely. At first, it was a disaster. I had no effing idea what I was doing. Plus I was cheap so the make up I bought was absolute crap. When I did start to see a glimmer of fabulous, I felt like a drag queen. It felt unnatural and agitating.
This was all out of proportion of course. But try telling that to a very scared 29 year old, opening up places she had nailed shut a long time ago.
Again, I went to the words of RuPaul for guidance.
When he is in full drag queen regalia, he is six foot 8, wearing pancake make up and gigantic hair. His inspiration comes from women, however, he is not a female impersonator. No woman looks like this honey.
I have gotten a lot better at it, wearing make up. My kids' baby sitter helped me, A LOT. She was the one who introduced me to Sephora. The more I express my feminity, the prettier I become, the more powerful I feel. Being a babe is akin to growing 50 feet tall.
All I have to say is heated eye lash curler and mascara. Try them and your life will be changed.
This part of becoming a woman, well, this part I have no trouble with.
Again, let's listen to the kind and lovely words of one Miss RuPaul. He gave an interview once, that when he dressed in drag he felt fierce beyond compare. But, it is just part of who he is, the drag is just an extension.
AND THAT IS THE GODDAMN KEY TO ALL OF THIS
However we express who we are, gender will always be a factor. And when I am full on female gorgeous, it is just an extension of what is inside.
Self-Potrait by RuPaul
And let me leave you this, from RuPaul
"Your fabulousness is YOUR responsibility"
Damn straight girl, damn straight !!
And let me say that when the wee Pancake and I dance to this song, we do indeed sashay AND shante!